Efffffff this noise, i am worth more than this!

Posted 3 months ago

I just want to be able to run to you and grab you and hold on to you forever. This is so hard for me. I didn’t realize I could fall so hard for you. Nothing hurts more than loving someone to have them not love you back.

I would do anything to see your face again Eamonn.

Posted 3 months ago

And love is blind and that I knew when
My heart was blinded by you.
I’ve kissed your lips and held your hand
Shared your dreams and shared your bed
I know you well, I know your smell
I’ve been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover

Posted 4 months ago

this whole brokenhearted business is getting kind of old………………sigh

Posted 4 months ago — 1 note

wow its been awhile

Well, it looks like havent posted anything in awhile. Alot has happened since my last crazy posts….ALOT.

-I finally left working at the bank. I come to realize that working there was making me miserable. I worked my ass off for 5 years there and it didnt seem things were looking up for me. Money was enough, but not enough, if that makes sense. I miss some of the people though. I didnt realize how much I meant to them until after I left. I sent the whole office my “i bid you adieu” email and left my personal email for those who ever wanted to contact me. Next thing you know, I recieved so many emails from my former employees and co-workers I had met over the years. They were all saying such wonderful things about me. I was so overwhelmed with emotion. I guess I sold myself too short.

Here’s part of one of the emails from one of my employees by the name of Farah :

“I wanted to thank you for all the things you’ve done for me. You were a great support during tough times and so much more than just a boss. You’re a kind person inside and out and you touched my life.

It’s unfortunate for me that I won’t be working with you anymore but I know you deserve the best.

Thank you truly for everything!”

- I ended up applying for a new job at this oil and gas engineering firm as a document analyst. I got hired a week later! I guess based on my experience with certain computer systems, I was a shoe in. My job is to pretty much do quality checks on documents before returning them to the engineers and clients. (it sounds easy, but it takes alot of patience and efficiency)  I will be making almost triple the amount I made at ATB and I wont have to be sad in such a micromanaged environment. Im a day away from finishing my first week on the job and Im pooped. But I LOVE it. I already feel happier and more motivated to go out there and make my $$$$ I forgot what it was like to be part of corporate life. It feels good to be dressed up in my business clothes with my Louis in one hand and a Soy Caramel Machiato on the other, big sunglasses on my face, struttin’ it down 8th Ave with all the suits. I feel like a grown up.

Posted 10 months ago — 1 note